Oh, and also loosing weight, anyway i can, since i dont care. Not that i'd do crack or anything.
So i've decided on my side pieces. One side will be a mushroom cloud, and the other side will be a tree that is almost the same shape. The tree will be full of life and super bright colors, maybe some cute little animals, it will read "hopeless" underneath. The mushroom cloud, again almost the same shape as the tree, will be dark with very dark reds and blacks. If i do get animals on the other side, there will be corresponding bones and charred remains under the mushroom cloud. Under the cloud it will read "hopeful"
I can loose 50 pounds and be in the healthy range. Goal set.